I was looking for the German word for silence and I landed on ruhig. However this translation carries a connotation of gentleness and peace and I wouldn’t necessarily equate either of those things to my situation. In essence, on the plane over here I caught a bug that turned into a full blown sinus infection, which found it’s way to my lungs and left me with a cough that seemingly devastated my vocal cords. I say “seemingly” because David pointed out I haven’t gone to the doctor yet, so I can’t say for sure. The doctor visit will happen sometime this week.
So what does this all mean? Well, it has had several consequences:
- I haven’t sung in a month.
- I’ve had to cancel two voice lessons.
- I have an audition this Wednesday likely I won’t be able to make. So I HAD an audition this Wednesday.
- David and I have barely spoken for the past week.
This last bit sounds like we are fighting, but in reality I am on self-imposed vocal rest. This means eliminating all unnecessary sounds. So if David was about to get hit by a car or something, certainly I would elect to use my voice to warn him. However, asking whether or not he would like coffee or tea in the morning is less urgent. The poor guy, the only person he really knows in Berlin won’t talk to him.
Luckily, just before I left I went to go see Dr. Rubin, an ENT who specializes in vocal care. He and my father have worked together in the past and a few weeks before moving, I ran into him while I was up visiting my dad at a medical trade show. When I told him I my plans, he suggested I have a scan of my cords to have as a benchmark. That way, I would have a comparison to make sure we couldn’t blame any new problems on anything that was there before the issue came about. Happy to have it, bummed to have to use it so soon.
Here is a picture of a picture of what my cords looked like, once upon a time when they were healthy:
Hopefully someday soon my cords will look like this again! Dr. Rubin recently published a book on vocal health called The Vocal Pitstop, which has been very helpful in my current condition. If you would like to learn more, then look no further.
This story will eventually have a happy ending. I will get better. In the meantime, I remain ruhig*.
*Does anybody have a better translation for silence auf Deutsche?